Peaceful Sigh!

Well, the end of the world didn't happen - thankfully. I still have far too much fabric to chop up and sew back together before before I'm ready for the end of the world.

Christmas has been and gone and I did manage to spend some short but precious time with some of my family which was lovely. I didn't take many photos either but I do have a couple on my phone which I'll scrap and post later.

Today though I've had to take a poorly girl under my wing - no pun intended. She is one of the farm chickens and has been attacked by one of the farm dogs. They have taken nearly every feather off her back and she looks really sore. I have her in a basket of straw in my dog's old cage along with food and water. The owners are away on holiday still. I suspect that one of the young cockerels has met an untimely demise as well. Loads of feathers all over the place and no cockerel to be found anywhere.

She was very stressed and cold when Ian found her lying on her back, but she seems a bit warmer now and her breathing is slower. she's even eaten a bit so we'll see how she is in the morning. I may yet take her to the vets. Ironic really as her owner is a vet.

Here's a picture of the poorly girl. I'll keep you posted on her progress. She's going to need a wooly jumper to keep her warm.

 

I am looking forward to 2013 as I have a few plans that I want to get off the ground.

 

See you all on the other side. Ciao for now xx

My Thoughts on 2012

I don’t think the world is going to end anytime soon at least not in the way that most people think but I do think things have got to change. This picture sums it up though.

Blue Hydrangeas

Occasionally I like to take part in the Oscraps monthly challenge. I find it stretches my creativity quite a bit and it’s also interesting to see just how different all the other uploaded images are from each other given that we’re all given the same design brief.

This month we were given a layered template to play with. I used it pretty much as it was but I could have done anything I wanted with those layers. Here is my attempt.

I took the pictures of the hydrangeas in a garden centre on my iPhone. I love hydrangeas especially when they are starting to die off. The colours in the flower heads are just gorgeous. These aren’t dying but they were both on the same plant. The pale blue being the newest flower.

And……. I found the lovely poem on the above picture on the internet. It’s by Gillian Clarke. I hope she doesn’t mind me using it.

I have a few pictures of a gorgeous pink one too so maybe I need to scrap those as well.

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Where has this year gone?

I can’t believe this year is nearly over. I can’t believe just how fast the hours, days, weeks and months fly by and I don’t seem to feel as if I’ve achieved anything apart from learning how to pack boxes and move very quickly.

I’m trying to remain positive but I’m finding it very hard. We moved to a farm that is very isolated and there are days when I don’t see another living soul except my dog and husband. And whilst the area is very pretty it’s also very lonely. I miss not having neighbours to chat with and I miss the beach where we were before. I miss not being able to just pop and see friends and family. AND I know what you’re all thinking – get out and make friends - which is good advice, but it does take time to find quilt or craft groups or a group I want to join and then when I’ve joined and made a few friends the other half gets disgruntled with his job and wants to leave.

There don’t seem to be very many jobs about up here but I keep looking. I actually feel as if my life has no real purpose at the moment. I’m not needed by anyone on a daily basis and I just feel redundant. I know I am going to have to try and alter the way I think about my life otherwise I could quite easily slip into a dark depression and I’m not that way inclined and refuse to walk that path.

The house we have moved into is also so cold it’s unreal. This doesn’t help my Raynaud's disease at all. I’ll have to get creative in my efforts to stay warm.

BUT to top it all, the husband has already said he wants to move on as he doesn’t like it here. I’ll be honest, farmers are a funny breed. Full of bullshit and lies but I really don’t think I can keep this moving lark up for much longer, in fact I have had enough. I really don’t think my OH knows just how much this moving around affects me. I really want to put down roots and call one place home. I’m actually not sure he really cares what effect it has on me but we’ll see.

After Christmas I am going to get some rescue chickens, at least I’ll have those to look after daily. A far cry from being an Adult and Further Education teacher that I was when I first met Ian eight years ago. I feel as if I’ve been dumbed down. Whether this is intentionally or not I don’t know. One thing is for sure 2013 will be very different even if it means I have to go it alone.

I’m not trying to be depressing here I’m just trying to make sense of how I feel right now and see if I can turn my life around and stay positive in a world that feels like it’s falling apart.

Teabag over and out.